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I leave for Colorado in two days and that's the good news.

The bad news is that my left backside started hurting this morning and has not relented. The good news in that, is that the pain has not gotten worse. At least, the day of the kidney stone, I was worse within an hour. So I don't think it's a stone, but I am worried it's my kidney.

I managed to snag an appointment with my doctor at three, so here's to hoping it's nothing serious. Or something treatable. I was petrified it was a stone, but it hasn't gotten worse, so I'm optimistic about that.

Cross your fingers for me <3

In other news, I dreamt about Sterling (where I'm planning to go visit) last night. It was night, I was driving around, but all the places I wanted to go were blocked off. So I headed home (the house where I used to live) but it was blocked too.

I'm sure THAT means something, so I hope to remember to sit down and look at some dream dictionaries later this evening. I'm curious.

My friend Kerrie is really excited to see me, she's been texting me today telling me she has a BBQ planned at her place on Sunday, but I'm not sure if I'll arrive early enough to attend. It makes me feel good that she wants to see me.

I hope this trip is worth it. I hope I'm not disappointed. I hope I get what I need from it.

still have the stone. coming to work yesterday sucked, but the lady who handles my report when I'm out wasn't going to be here, so I had no choice, really.

spent the entire weekend sleeping and throwing everything up. it sucks when you throw up for reasons other than a stomach bug.

i left work early and went to my doctor. she said based on what i told her, it sounds like the stone is moving and hopefully i'll pass it soon but there's no way to really say. they gave me a shot for my pain (which helped, can i get one every day???) and i spent the rest of the evening at home.

i should mention, i literally did not sleep sunday night into monday. i dozed for a couple hours til before midnight and i started hurting/feeling pressure that i couldn't ignore or do anything about. i literally was awake until 5am and then i just got up and got ready for the day.

i feel better than i have since this started today, but i'm super nauseous this morning and really don't want to be here, but my vacation to colorado is less than two weeks away and i can't use all my PTO on this freaking stone. :(