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I have a hard time typing on this keyboard at work, so this post won't be long, I'm just feeling some super writing frustration and I'm struggling hard with it.

I feel a bit lost with the second book. I keep see-sawing between this being normal or giving into the ALL IS LOSSSTTTTTTTTT feeling I tend to wallow in when things don't come easily. This final rewrite of Book One came about very rapidly. Now that it's done and I'm on to the second book, there is no rewrite. Fixing and revamping Book One ultimately negated EVERY subsequent book I'd written in the series. I'm not crushed. They weren't very good (and I mean that truthfully, full of teenage logic and drama that would've had to be removed and fixed in addition to the poor/shaky plots they had.) But it makes Book Two that much more of a challenge.

I'm struggling with details. I should've thought out publishing the first one a little more. Any plots for the next two books have to coincide with book one, and it's starting to become a struggle. I'm worried it's becoming too complicated in comparison to the first and I can't decide if that's okay or not. I can't say much without spoiling it and I don't want to do that.

What's worse is my struggle with Lani. Her identity is so important, and every decision I make seems to affect it in a negative way.

And yeah, I know I'll probably work these problems out, I'm just so worried about it all. Regardless of how the book does, I want it to be my best. I don't want to half-ass it and I want things to make sense, and I want the characters to work and be...relatable.

ARgh..

I've hit a bit of a hitch in the editing process. One of the things I wanted to do this time around was weed out the adverbs because I've been told I use them too much and after some looking into....yeah, okay, I do. The writing tool/editor I've been using concurs lol

However, I fail to understand or agree with the vast majority of writers and articles claiming the use of is "lazy writing". I get it, I get why they think that, but I don't agree. The problem is, the writers/books that I like and read.......write this way. And most of them, if not all, have had books that hit New York Times' Bestsellers list. So if they can have what you call "lazy writing" by abusing adverbs, why can't I?

I was thinking that it was just the older writers (I'm big on Terry Brooks, whose first book was published in the 70s) that were guilty of this, but Brent Weeks is another writer I follow and he is heavy on the adverbs and I don't mind it one bit.

So I think I'm going to halt the overhaul and just clean up ones that can be worded better or don't add anything to the sentence and leave it at that. Because this whole adverb nonsense pisses me off. I don't like how so many articles refer to it as "lazy writing". I take that SO PERSONALLY FOR SOME REASON.


I know this is an extremely (omg adverb) random rant, but it just IRKS me. I get not having too many, but like lakdsjflkasjflkasf idk.

I'm ready to publish this bitch.