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sometimes I hate how emotional music makes me, but I know this game hit me in a lot of ways that make me feel connected to it, and writing all the fics I've written has made it worse, but


THIS SONG, bro:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_EixYmTi8RE

all i want to do is cry when i hear it.


yay being an empath. not.

In my quest to obtain stuff from the past, i.e., nostalgia road, I found some discs friends burned for me when my first computer died. Unfortunately, the one with my music on it was nowhere to be found, and THAT one would probably have solved some, if not all, of my problems.

HOWEVER. I *did* find some fanart of my book a friend drew for me back in 2001/2002. It was a picture I thought was lost, so I straight up got emotional when I stumbled over it. AND I found a fanfic for a fandom that shall not be named because it's humiliating and gross, BUTTTTTTT, the pair aside, it was actually...dare I say, a GOOD read. I...really need to start giving myself more credit. My writing is not terrible ;-;

Like, it's good enough to replace characters with of a different fandom and put up on Ao3 lol ngl, I'm tempted!

But my quest to find music I lost still goes on. Unless someone wants to give me an iTunes gift card, a lot of this will have to wait. But I still have my old laptop, it's dead but the harddrive SHOULD still be okay. I just need to find someone with the means to help me get stuff off it. Crossing my fingers that I know someone.

edit: since I don't expect any of my friends to have the means/offer to help, went ahead and asked my dad for what I needed.. So I just bought an adapter that should arrive on Friday. imma be extra mad if it gets here and nothing is on that harddrive. I hope my friend copied the files when he helped me back in the day and didn't MOVE them onto the discs I can't find.