![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
Kind of dumb but
Mar. 8th, 2019 12:10 pmI was really NOT feeling this latest fic I started for the FFXV fandom. It's another fic from another fandom I was customizing for the lovely boys and it just...it just wasn't happening.
Sometimes, I'll get into something and it makes me SO happy for a brief moment in time that I kind of lose myself in it to a point that's borderline unhealthy. Call it chasing the dragon, IDK. But I was worried I had reached that point of "okay, I need to back off" since this fic wasn't clicking.
Sad thing is, I WANT to work on it. So, I decided if I didn't get any comments on this latest chapter, that was to be my sign. I'd walk away, no harm no foul.
And then I wake up with a comment, so hah, okay there goes that plan.
Then I get to work and I got the NICEST comment on my latest chapter. About how interesting it is and how well the characters are written, even the sub-characters. And I just... I mean, I didn't get emotional, but I just had to stop and go... AW. Like, those moments where you're just like "F-it" and something like that happens.
It's a good feeling.
So I'm going to really try to write this fic to the best of my abilities. Maybe it won't work regardless, but...idk, I feel so good about it now, I'm willing to really try.
Sometimes, I'll get into something and it makes me SO happy for a brief moment in time that I kind of lose myself in it to a point that's borderline unhealthy. Call it chasing the dragon, IDK. But I was worried I had reached that point of "okay, I need to back off" since this fic wasn't clicking.
Sad thing is, I WANT to work on it. So, I decided if I didn't get any comments on this latest chapter, that was to be my sign. I'd walk away, no harm no foul.
And then I wake up with a comment, so hah, okay there goes that plan.
Then I get to work and I got the NICEST comment on my latest chapter. About how interesting it is and how well the characters are written, even the sub-characters. And I just... I mean, I didn't get emotional, but I just had to stop and go... AW. Like, those moments where you're just like "F-it" and something like that happens.
It's a good feeling.
So I'm going to really try to write this fic to the best of my abilities. Maybe it won't work regardless, but...idk, I feel so good about it now, I'm willing to really try.
