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bill_kaulitz) wrote2019-05-17 11:51 am
bill_kaulitz) wrote2019-05-17 11:51 am
????
Maybe fanfic was probably the best thing I could've done for myself. I come every day and just WRITE (though I did struggle last night lol, but ASIDE FROM THAT)..
I just wish I could channel that excitement into my novels. I know part of it is intimidation and nerves and frustration because I don't think my creation is good enough, and that fanfic is an easy way out because all the world building and stuff is done for me. I don't have to worry about that nonsense.
But I miss my babies. I miss my OCs and I want to see them grow into these characters I adore so much in my fics, who aren't mine.
It's conflicting.
I just wish I could channel that excitement into my novels. I know part of it is intimidation and nerves and frustration because I don't think my creation is good enough, and that fanfic is an easy way out because all the world building and stuff is done for me. I don't have to worry about that nonsense.
But I miss my babies. I miss my OCs and I want to see them grow into these characters I adore so much in my fics, who aren't mine.
It's conflicting.